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(Snuggle With Me?) [07 Mar 2007|06:22am] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | Victim of the Game ] So...I am dead. I have an OChem test this morning...at 7:30, oh joy, and I haven't gotten a second of sleep. I need to take a stress management class or something. But I am going to do okay! I have to. I think I might be more awake for it than I would have been had I gone to bed, since it is early in the morning. Too bad I can't go home and crash afterwards. No, I have to write up four immunology labs and study for an immunology lab exam, and also do my physics homework. Oh, joy. I do not, on any level, recommend being a science major!

(3Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) Getting Better and My Birthday! [30 Dec 2006|05:21pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Old Stuff Grandma is Playing ] I never post in here, Jalena says. Which is true. I just never know what to say. I guess I do have a few things I could write about--I am just so tired of getting on and wanting to say "I am all better" but never really am. However, I feel amazing right now. I think that I might be actually getting better now. Wouldn't it be amazing if I actually did? Four months after the beginning, to be free of any intoxicating and debilitating virus and just walk through life like everyone else? To be able to wake up every morning, knowing the next time I would be in bed would be at--oh--a normal bedtime, at night? That would be amazing! I have been praying and praying that I would get better. I think the time has come. Please, please, please. Other than that, I turned freaking 21!!! WHOOHOO! And yes, I had fun. I was sick that day, but I made sure that I was in bed most of the day so that I would be nice and perky for the evening's activities. So I had people over for pizza, and then we went to Downtown Denver and to The Cheesecake Factory for dessert, and then bar-hopping. It was sooooo much fun. Jalena and Nikki came down for cheesecake then left, and Adam, Amy, Eric, Annie, Lisa, and Adam's brother Eric and his friends were out for the whole night. It was sooooo much fun! The fun of being 21 isn't just drinking--it's being out. WhoohoO! I loved it! All the music, and the people, and the drink-tasting...it was delightful. I thoroughly enjoyed it. And Adam and his brother are the two nicest guys ever. They split buying my friends and me drinks the whole night. Us lucky girls didn't have to pay for a dang thing. It was great. I will remember that night forever and ever and ever and ever!!!

(Snuggle With Me?) Fun Quiz Thingie [09 Nov 2006|07:15pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | Hell Yeah ] Your Values Profile Loyalty: You value loyalty highly. You're completely devoted to your friends and family. Even if they totally screw up, you're still there for them. Just make sure they're equally loyal to you! Honesty: You value honesty a fair amount. You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it. If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it. In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity." Generosity: You value generosity highly. So much so that you often put your own needs last. There's nothing wrong with having a caring heart... But you may want to rethink your "open wallet" policy. Humility: You value humility a fair amount. You tend to be an easy going, humble person. But occasionally your ego takes over. You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best. Tolerance: You value tolerance highly. Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you... You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends. You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them. The Five Factor Values Test

(Snuggle With Me?) I Should Be Sleeping...But I Thought I'd Take a 30 Sec Quiz Instead... [26 Oct 2006|01:18pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | I think I just heard my roommate fart... ] Your Personality Profile You are nurturing, kind, and lucky. Like mother nature, you want to help everyone. You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive. A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker. You are good natured and people enjoy your company. You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you. The World's Shortest Personality Test

(3Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) Heart Palpitations...WTF?! [07 Oct 2006|02:18am] [ mood | relieved ] [ music | One of those GCB songs Jalena burned on my CD ] So...um...these last few days have been the scariest fucking days of my life. That's all I have to say. You couldn't pay me to ingest one freaking molecule of Adderall ever again, and...well. I'm just very glad everything was okay. Because I was seriously afraid for my life. Thank God everything is okay.

(1Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) THE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE!!! [27 Aug 2006|01:19pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | Fat Bottom Girls -- Queen ] Last night was pretty much the best night of my life. I would never have imagined that I would be happy to have had my chapter closed, but last night would never have happened if we were still open. I moved into my apartment a little over a week ago, in with three other lovely ladies, whom I will treasure as true friends for the rest of eternity. Their names are Amy, Abigail, and Heather. We also have many amazing sisters that come over and visit a lot. One of them, Robin, was over and we decided that we wanted to have a Pina Colada night. And thus Saturday night was approaching, and I called up many of my fantastic buddies and invited them to come and participate in the evening. What we'd initially had in mind was a night of Pina Coladas and chick flicks--pretty laid back, but so much fun. Well, once everyone was over and we were watching a chick flick TV show on DVD (Freaks and Geeks?), I realized I really didn't feel like watching anything on a screen. So when I realized that we didn't have nearly enough ice made to make delicious Pina Coladas and Daiquiris, I didn't hesitate to seize the opportunity to make a temporary escape and get some ice. I asked if anyone wanted to come with me, and two girls did--Erin and Jessica. So we hopped in my car and started heading over to King Soopers, when Erin mentioned that she'd been on a run that day, and while she was running, had come up with the crazy idea of all of us dressing up as goofy made-up superheros and making a coffee-table booklet of our "rescues" and "adventures." I told her it was a brilliant idea, and we decided we were going to go to a thrift store and pick up stuff for everyone. So we turned around and drove to ARC Thrift Store and looked at many hilarious possibilities, and finally went to the checkouts just before they closed. We got a few cell phone calls inquiring as to where the heck we were and what was taking so long, but we told them we'd run into a few complications and would be back in a few minutes. Then, we picked up ice, and headed back. I wasn't sure if everyone would be into it. I mean, it was pretty crazy--and not everyone can be expected to be into that kind of thing. When I put on my outfit and modeled it for everyone, I wasn't sure if everyone approved--but before I knew it, everyone was trying on the stuff we had, and taking stuff from our closets and other people's closets, and ultimately putting together the most hilarious superhero outfits ever. While everyone was getting dressed, I made the drinks (with sufficient amounts of ice, of course) and had my own delicious Pina Colada. Then, I put my hair into pigtails, and then applied bold makeup much more liberally than usual. Then, one more girl came...Susanne. She didn't feel up to par, so she decided to be our official photographer. Yay! So we went to the front lawn and took a few group pictures in various obnoxious poses. From there, we decided to walk over to our president's apartment, since she lived in the same apartment complex, and as we went we sang Theta songs, and I'm sure we sounded DRUNK. Funny thing was, none of us were. Most of us had virgin drinks, and the most anyone had alcoholic was two non-virgin drinks. So did we have any real excuse for our behavior? Naw. We were just awesome. I love my sisters! So we sang our silly songs and showed up at our chapter president's apartment (her name is Shannon.) She turned out to be having a Margarita night at her place, so we got to see even more sisters. Oh yeah! Then, we went to our other sister Kat's apartment, who was also in the same apartment complex. At that point, the sprinklers had started running, so we had to run through the sprinklers to get to her front door. It took some persuading to get certain individuals to go through, LOL. She rooms with a couple guys and also had another guy over--I hope we didn't scare them! We were CRAZY. So we visited with them for a while, then decided to head back to my apartment to take more pictures. As I was going through the sprinklers, though, I definitely tripped, ate it, scraped up my knee, and got stuck giggling right in the middle of the sprinklers. Definitely hilarious. Jessica couldn't stop laughing and felt so bad. She said "It's not funny, I'm sorry!" But really, it was. She's so cute. Then, this guy in an apartment nearby who was just outside his front door asked us if we were freshmen and why the heck our sorority was making us do this. I'm not quite sure he believed us that none of us were freshmen and that we'd done this entirely on our own prerogative. While we were walking back, I decided I was hyper enough to start singing in Elmo voice...within seconds, I kid you not, we turned a corner and ended up very nearly face-to-face with the security guard for the apartment complex. He asked us what party we were going to, and for some reason he believed us when we told him the truth. We weren't having a party. We were just sorority sisters taking ridiculous pictures of one-another dressed as superheros. He laughed and let us go. Then, we went back to my apartment, and Erin's creativity was officially brought to reality. She arranged special poses for each of us for our superhero outfits. Her pose, since she was dressed in spandex and swimming gear, was her pretending to be diving into the toilet. LOL. And mine was with my leg up on the leg of the couch, bearing a "weapon" just like a gun, but it was actually my hair dryer. We had one girl pretend to be meditating in a locus position on this amazingly meditative looking pillow Heather had. I really am tempted to go through all of them because I'm so entertained by it, but that would probably be boring. If it's possible, I will put up the pictures from the evening...I didn't get to take the pictures with my camera, cuz it's broken and getting fixed somewhere and I won't get it back till August 30! All in all, last night was a blast. I LOVE my friends--they are amazing! I can't imagine how dull life would be without them in contrast to the way it is now. I just want to be like this in college forever!

(Snuggle With Me?) Okay, Meggy, I stole another one! [24 Aug 2006|06:26pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | This Diamond Ring ] The Keys to Your Heart You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

(1Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) Had to do this... [15 Aug 2006|09:42pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Free Willy Theme ] You're an Expert Kisser You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable What Kind of Kisser Are You?

(Snuggle With Me?) LOL, Who'd Guess? [06 Aug 2006|12:44am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Silence ] Your True Birth Month Is December Logical Patriotic Ambitious Not egoistic Loves praise Loves to joke Fun to be with Not pretending Loves attention Short tempered Hates restrictions Loves to socialize Loves to be loved Loyal and generous Impatient and hasty Changing personality Good sense of humor Honest and trustworthy Influential in organizations Takes high pride in oneself Active in games and interactions What's Your True Birth Month?

(Snuggle With Me?) [02 Aug 2006|05:57pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | Any Man of Mine (stuck in my head) ] So I woke up at 9:10 today. Was supposed to be at work at 9. So I flung out of bed, threw come clothes on, grabbed my stuff and got to work at 9:15. Am I hella good or what?!

(1Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) Simple Pleasures [26 Jun 2006|04:21pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | Cigarette Song by Graham Colton Band ] 10 Simple Pleasures (Since I was tagged by Sissy.) 1. Listening to your favorite song on repeat. 2. Understanding a concept for the first time. 3. Listening to a man with a hot voice talk. 4. Air conditioning in your car when it's 100 degrees! Whoohoo! 5. Hearing from a friend you haven't talked to in a long time. 6. Coming home to pets that are super happy to see you! 7. Cuddling while watching a movie. 8. Going on a spontaneous outing with the people you love. 9. Getting an A on an assignment. 10. Thinking about sex at church. LOL, I know, I'm so bad!

(Snuggle With Me?) Can't think of an interesting subject today.... [16 Jun 2006|09:25pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | My Humps ] Well, I haven't written in here in forever and a day, and I figure I need to start writing things down so I can...I don't know...have a clearer image as to where I am these days. Sometimes I don't even know anymore. Everything seems like it's a huge whirlpool, even though my life isn't exactly hopping. I guess I've been kind of depressed, but it's getting better. Hopefully it will continue to do so. I haven't had much of a social life. I hung out with Kim last night, which was definitely fun. I think I need to be a little more proactive, though I have to accept that my social life just isn't going to be what it is at college while I'm down here. I have just grown apart from so many people, and honestly, I wouldn't want it to be any other way. And I don't meet that many people. Maybe I could hang out with a couple people I've met in class...I'm taking classes at the University of Colorado at Denver, and the class is small, so I've kind of made a couple comrades. At least people I say hi to and ride the light rail home with. Maybe we'll form study groups and hang out a bit. Or maybe not. But I should try. Why not? One of the girls in my class is actually a biology major at CSU. She's really cool. Her name is Nahid. And I have officially inherited my grandma's car, which is a '99 Buick Regal. It's really nice. But I can't help but feel remorse for no longer driving the Purple People Eater. She represents my personality so well: she stands out not because of perfection, but because of originality. And she's cute! And come on, I've wanted a purple car since I could talk and I said "Mommy, I want a purple car when I grow up." So I got a purple car. And now I am getting a tan car! And it's amazing; the transmission actually works, and it has air-conditioning! But I need to do something to it to make it a ME car. It won't ever be the Purple People Eater. But...come on...a Buick? I definitely need to spice things up a bit. Will, one of the two kids I nanny for (he's fourteen...he's really cool...they really just need someone to stay there in case the shit hits the fan and to drive them around, so I get paid to hang out with cool kids) said that he would put flames on it for me. LOL. I am not exactly a flames kind of girl. My mom said I should put flowers on it. Haha, I don't think my dad would be too happy about me doing anything to the paint. But I should think of something. I wonder if they have stuff for that at Car Toys. The toys part sounds rather enticing, I'm not gonna lie. Maybe I could find something cute there. As for school--wait, why am I talking about school? The mere thought of it makes me want to gag. And who wouldn't? Three and a half hours of physics lecture two days a week, plus three and a half hours of physics lab. Blah. Shoot me now. And Spammy is supposed to call me when she gets back from work. Hopefully we can do a least a little bit of something fun. Her stupid work, she works so late! I want to play more! :-( Too bad everyone is gone this summer. I am so bored! Oh! But I started volunteering again at the House of Hope, and it's actually REALLY fun this time around. I think for a couple years, I went through an anti-kids phase. I've always loved kids, but I all of a sudden found myself pretty intolerant with their behavior and childish ways. I am pleased to discover that that phase is over, and I can return to having a blast playing with kids. That's when I do my work the best; my job is to reach out to the kids, be a good role model, and make them feel like they have a connection to me. Kids at homeless shelters don't need someone just helping them; they need someone to be their friend. And I feel like I can do that better now that I love them again instead of getting annoyed with them being kids. Wow, I am ranting. I need to write in here more. So I don't write mile-long entries. More entries shorter in length should probably be my approach. Let's see if I can't get a little consistency going here for once! Speaking of consistency, my lack thereof has forced me to begin cramming for my physics exam on Monday. So I should go do that until Spammy calls. So, peace out!

(Snuggle With Me?) Just for fun! [23 Apr 2006|10:09pm] [ music | You're Beautiful ] Directions: Put your music player on shuffle. Press forward for each question. Use the song title as the answer to the question. No cheating! - How am I feeling today? The Bad Touch Will I get far in life? One Song Glory How do my friends see me? The Internet is for Porn When will I get Married? This Diamond Ring What's my theme song? Simply Beautiful What is the story of my life? Can You Feel the Love Tonight? What am I like in bed? All Apologies How can I get ahead in life? In Your Wildest Dreams (LMAO) What is my best feature? Better Now How is today going to be? Rhapsody in Blue What is in store for this weekend? Nothing Wrong What is my life like at the moment? Faster What song describes my secrets? When I’m Gone What is my current lover like? Another Day What song will they play at my funeral?: Be Our Guest How does the world see me? Money Will I have a happy life? Suds in the Bucket What do my friends really think of me? Helena Do people secretly lust after me? Highway to Hell Will I accomplish my goals in life? Sex Supreme Will I find true love? Place for my Head How do I treat others? The Man Who Sold the World

(1Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) Wow, I'm Bored [27 Mar 2006|04:27pm] [ mood | grumpy ] [ music | Spare Me the Details ] 1. You can only say YES or NO. 2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you / comments and asks! 1. Taken a picture naked? No 2. Painted your room? No 3. Made out with a member of the same sex? No 4. Drove a car? Yes 5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes 6. Have a crush? No 7. Been dumped? No 8. Stole money from friend? No 9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? No 10. Been in a fist fight? No 11. Snuck out of your house? Yes 12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes 13. Been arrested? No 14. Made out with a stranger? Yes 15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes 16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes 17. Had a crush on your neighbor? No 18. Ditched school to do something more fun? No 19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes 20. Seen someone die? No 21. Been on a plane? Yes 22. Kissed a picture? No 23. Slept in until 3PM? No 24. Love someone or miss someone right now? No 25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes 26. Made a snow angel? Yes 27. Played dress up? Yes 28. Cheated while playing a game? No 29. Been lonely? Yes 30. Fallen asleep at work/school? No 31. Been to a club? Yes 32. Felt an earthquake? No 33. Touched a snake? Yes 34. Ran a red light? Yes 35. Been suspended from school? No 36. Had detention? Yes 37. Been in a car accident? Yes 38. Hated the way you look? Yes 39. Witnessed a crime? Yes 40. Pole danced? No 41. Been lost? Yes 42. Been to the opposite side of the country? Yes 43. Felt like dying? Yes 44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes 46. Sang karaoke? Yes 47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes 48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? Yes 49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes 50. Kissed in the rain? No 51. Sing in the shower? Yes 52. Made love in a park? No 53. Had a dream that you married someone? Yes 54. Glued your hand to something? No 55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No 56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No 57. Been a cheerleader? No 58. Sat on a roof top? Yes 59. Didn't take a shower for a week? No 60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? No 61. Played chicken? No 62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No 63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? Yes 64. Broken a bone? No 65. Been easily amused? Yes 66. Laugh so hard you cry? Yes 67. Mooned/flashed someone? No 68. Cheated on a test? No 69. Forgotten someone's name? Yes 70. Slept naked? No 71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? No 73. Blacked out from drinking? No 74. Played a prank on someone? Yes 75. Gone to a late night movie? Yes 76. Made love to anything not human? NO 77. Failed a class? Yes 78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? No 79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? Maybe... 80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? No 81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? Yes 82. Thrown strange objects? Yes 83. Felt like killing someone? Yes 84. Thought about running away? Yes 85. Ran away? No 86. Did drugs? No 87. Had detention and not attend it? No 89. Made a parent cry? Yes 90. Cried over someone? Yes 91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? Yes 92. Dated someone more than once? No 93. Have a dog? Yes 94. Own an instrument? Yes 95. Been in a band? No 96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No 97. Broken a cd? Yes 98. Shot a gun? No

(1Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) Movie Quotes! [26 Mar 2006|07:48pm] [ music | Pump It ] So, I'm gonna do the movie thing too. I am writing out 15 movie quotes, and the goal here is to guess what movie all of them were plucked from. So comment and list your guesses! Good luck! Some aren't going to be easy...ahahahahah! #1 "You are what you love, not what loves you." #2 "When the world turns it's back on you, you turn your back on the world." #3 "I shall call it the lake of shining waters." #4 "Let's go get our asses kicked by love!" #5 "She offered him a rose in exchange for shelter from the bitter cold." #6 "There's only one idiot in this town with pajamas like that!" #7 "I'll let you get back to Reginald's quivering member." #8 "Of course it's unfair. We're women. Our choices are never easy." #9 "Just come a little closer. Let me see that profile. Oh yes! Just look at that profile! She's the spittin' image of you know who? Frankenstein!" #10 "Turkey! Turkey turkey turkey turkey turkey turkey!!!" #11 "That's right, you're going alone. And I'm going with you." #12 "Good thing we didn't panic!" #13 "Has my son finally followed his feet?" #14 "Make sure you use a condom. Or, in your case, a Hefty bag." #15 "This is going to sound really juvenile, but...I dated my wife since I was fifteen and then we got married, and...well...can I hold your hand?"

(2Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) [26 Feb 2006|01:50pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | Promise ] K, trying an LJ cut here. So these are the Friday night pictures! ( FRIDAY NIGHT CRAZINESS PICTURES!!! )

(1Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) So cute! [21 Feb 2006|04:34pm] [ mood | lethargic ] [ music | Gone ] Kermit the Frog You scored 56% Organization, 60% abstract, and 71% extroverted! This test measured 3 variables. First, this test measured how organized you are. Some muppets like Cookie Monster make big messes, while others like Bert are quite anal about things being clean. Second, this test measured if you prefer a concrete or an abstract viewpoint. For the purposes of this test, concrete people are considered to gravitate more to mathematical and logical approaches, whereas abstract people are more the dreamers and artistic type. Third, this test measured if you are more of an introvert or an extrovert. By definition, an introvert concentrates more on herself and an extrovert focuses more on others. In this test an introvert was somebody that either tends to spend more time alone or thinks more about herself. You are mostly organized, both concrete and abstract, and more extroverted. Here is why are you Kermit the Frog. You are both somewhat organized. You have a good idea where you put things and you probably keep your place reasonably clean. You aren't totally obsessed with neatness though. Kermit is also reasonably tidy. He'll even dress up for interviews. You both are sometimes concrete and sometimes abstract thinkers. Kermit spends a lot of his time as a reporter collecting facts, but he is also the author of the dreamy song "The Rainbow Connection." You have a good balance in your life. You know when to be logical at times, but you also aren't afraid to explore your dreams and desires... within limits of course. You are both extroverts. Kermit gets along with everyone. Sure a few folks annoy him, but that's just because they are annoying. Kermit likes to meet new people when he does his job as a street reporter. You definitely enjoy the company of others, and you don't have problems meeting new people... in fact you probably look forward to it. You are willing to take charge when necessary or work as part of a team. Oh, and in case you were wondering, Kermit starred on Sesame Street years before The Muppet Show. The other possible characters are Oscar the Grouch Big Bird Snuffleupagus Ernie Elmo Cookie Monster Grover The Count Guy Smiley Bert If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also if you want to tell me your favorite Sesame Street character, I can total them up and post them here. Perhaps your choice will win! My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 50% on Organization You scored higher than 76% on concrete-abstra You scored higher than 74% on intro-extrovert Link: The Your SESAME STREET Persona Test written by greencowsgomoo on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

(Snuggle With Me?) Guilty Pleasures [21 Feb 2006|04:06pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | One Step Closer ] Tagged by: Jalena The Rules: The first player of this game starts with the topic of "5 Guilty Pleasures" and people who get tagged need to write an LJ entry about 5 Guilty Pleasures as well as stating this rule clearly. In the end you need to choose 5 people to be tagged. 1. Old pop music...from when I was a middleschooler. I liked it then...and still like it now! But it has to be old...I hate the new stuff...it sucks! 2. Rap music. When I'm in the right mood. Just for the beat...and the freedom of sexual expression. And I mean NOT in the really raunchy ones...like Eminem. Ick. Like...Get Low. Love that song! 3. Cookies. Girl scout cookies, chocolate chip cookies, whatever. I ate so many this weekend...sinful. (I second this one!) 4. Facebook. I'm addicted, just like every other college kid. 5. Sexy underwear. Not that anyone sees it, but...it just makes me feel more bold and sexy. It's so much fun to go shopping for lacey, scandalous thongs! LOL. Love it. Now...who to tag? I have very few lj friends...but quality is better than quantity! So Khadija and Jared...you are tagged! (I doubt Jared will do it since you're not that into updating, but you are tagged if you're up for it!)

(Snuggle With Me?) [04 Feb 2006|01:14pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Anne of Green Gables in the background ] So...Mom thinks I have ADD. And she filled out a questionaire about my tendences, so I'm probably gonna have to test for it. Yay.

(1Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) [24 Jan 2006|02:45pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | Someday--Nickelback ] So, I'm up a vote in front of my chapter about academic termination. They don't get to know my name or whether or not I tried. They just hear that I got a 1.64 last semester, and have to vote based on that. I guess that means I'm out.

(1Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) My Room! [18 Jan 2006|09:53pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | I Wanna Be Sedated--The Offspring ] So...Jalena gave me pretty stuff for my room for Christmas, so I am posting pictures of my new and gorgeous room so she can see how sparkly and pretty it is now! And so I can show the difference between sorority house and dorm...a rather significant difference. First, let's look at my dorm room from last year... Now, let's look at my room this year (and the entire room is NOT in the picture). I do share this room with two other girls, but it's still SOOOOOOOO much bigger and nicer and I have so much more room to move around and hang up things and basically exist. And now for the pretty stuff Jalena gave me for Christmas... And my little area as a whole... Exciting, I know. I didn't include the area where I have my bulletin board, my bookshelf, and my dresser. I didn't think those were the most interesting parts of the room. So there's my room tour! Thank you for making it pretty, Jalena! Oh! And the lights will go up when I find a way to put them up...at the moment, I don't have the means to do so, but I'm sure I'll find a way soon! Thanks again!

(2Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) [10 Jan 2006|11:25pm] [ mood | crushed ] I am so fucking frustrated now, it's not even funny. How hard is it for me to write out how I feel? Pretty fucking hard. It hurts, and it's emotionally draining. And my mouse hit the keyboard and clicked the back button and erased my entire freaking entry. So I could really use to meat grinder right now to toss my mouse and keyboard in for messing up my entry. Well, here I go. I haven't written in here since November 26th, which is pretty sad, I know. What do I have to write about? What have I done that I could be happy about? You know, there are a few things. But what's overwhelming to me right now is how devastated and worthless I feel. I've decided that I feel intellectually idle, and that I am craving intellectual stimulation once again. I'm sure I will look upon this feeling with resentment a few weeks down the road as I drown in the contents I've slapped upon my plate once again. I have had time to sit down and think through my goals. I usually set them out before each semester, have a picture painted in my mind of just how I want it to be. I want to find myself. I want to focus and put my energy into something. I want to pour my soul and passion (of which I have tons) into something, to put myself out there, try, make mistakes, and learn. I want to feel I am worth as much as a person. Dear God, can I please make my goals for once? Please. I haven't ever before. I am so sick of it! I know it must be my fault somehow, but I don't know how! Can there please be some way for me to find out? For the switch to just switch on and for me to do well for once? Please. If there's anything I will admit about myself, it's that I'm sporadic, unfocused, but kind-hearted and with the best intentions. Please. I just want to be equipped to do what I believe in. And I know it may be selfish, but I want to know what it's like to love myself! Because I don't! I have a little voice inside of me, telling me everything will be okay. Heck, so many that have succeeded report times of one failure after another, but they stuck through it and proved ingenuity that brought success and accomplishment that could outweigh any string of failures. I wish that I could feel like that could be me, but I don't. What these people had was at least one moment where they succeeded. They did well in school at one point, had a professor that believed in them, anything. And even if it was a tiny one, they were left with a shred of light to hold on to and nurture to a fire. I wish I had such a shred. I have never been great at anything--always mediocre. I suppose I was the best babysitter at one point, but that's hardly a shred of light when it comes to self-sufficiency and intelligence. Yay. I can play with kids! I am going to be an amazingly successul person! Yeah. Freaking. Right. So here I am, pathetic me, beseeching God for my little shred of light. Is it possible for me to do what I want? Or am I going to always be the one that drowns in the undertow of the world and goes unnoticed, without making a change positive or negative in the world? Am I always going to be in the background of existence, just that one girl who could play with little kids and make babies smile? Is that me? Am I as close to nothing as it gets? Or do I have a shred of light waiting to reveal itself to me somewhere, out there, in the untangible abyss I have yet to stumble upon? I don't know. I don't freaking know. All I know is that the description above fits me flawlessly as of today. And that I don't want it to--that's why I keep trying. That's why I'm still trying. Am I just looking in the wrong place? If I am, can the right direction please, please reveal itself to me?! I am so freaking lost! I just don't know what to do anymore! I don't want to fade into the background. I don't want to be like this forever! I don't want to leave this world without having made an imprint with what I believe compassion and love can do! Please don't let me fail again.

(1Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) Ahh...yay for destressalization! [26 Nov 2005|08:19pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Inside Out--Eve 6 ] It's amazing what a few days off will do when it comes to alleviating stress and clearing one's mind. I feel so much better than I have in a really, really long time. And ya know what? I think I'm starting to figure out more of what I want and how I'm going to get it. Now it's just a matter of doing it without breaking under the stress that comes from high-set goals. I realize I am terrible at keeping this lj thing up. Should I just cancel it? I do write in my blogger blog, though not nearly as often as I should. But I honestly have an attachment to my blogger blog--I've kept it going for four years! And I have a bunch of it printed out from my sophomore year in highschool, and it is so much fun to go back and read it. Even if some of the ranting and raving makes me laugh in hindsight, it's always fun to go back and remember who I was when I was sixteen. And it's interesting to see how my writing style and topic choices have evolved from then until now. Honestly, I think I've gotten a lot more paranoid. I used to write about the way I felt, even if it did put in a few negative words out against someone else. Now, I am so afraid someone will get mad about what I wrote, so I keep everything neutral. Which is dumb. Cuz it's not like anyone reads it anyway. Except for Sid! Cuz Sid actually read my blog before I met him in Literateen. Two years before Literateen! Which is such a coincidence, it boggles my mind. Anyway, I need to go do some more studying for chemistry so I can finish that up and start on some physics. Two tests this week, ack! And then a week of no tests, and then finals. Then I'm done with these crappy classes. I'm so excited! Have I written our my next semester schedule yet? LOL, probably not. I doubt I've even written an entry since I determined what my schedule was going to be. So, here it is... MONDAYS 9-9:50 AM General Microbiology 10-10:50 AM Biology of Organisms 1:10-2 PM The Study of Literature TUESDAYS 10-10:50 AM Microcomputing 1:10-2:50 PM General Microbiology Lab 3:10-4 Drugs and the Human Body WEDNESDAYS 9-9:50 AM General Microbiology 10-10:50 AM Biology of Organisms 1:10-2 PM The Study of Literature 2:10-5 Biology of Organisms Lab THURSDAYS 10-10:50 Microcomputing 1:10-2:50 General Microbiology Lab 3:10-4 Drugs and the Human Body FRIDAYS 9-9:50 AM General Microbiology 10-10:50 AM Biology of Organisms 1:10-2 The Study of Literature

(2Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) [07 Nov 2005|02:55pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Lose My Mind ] FUTURE COLLEGE STUDENTS...LISTEN UP! This is my advice to all future college students, and if I could go back in time, I would definitely abide by these little tidbits. #1 Go to a small college or university. Okay, I know I said CSU is great. I take it back, and I side with you, Jalena. Because class size matters. It's the difference between professors lecturing to you or teaching you. Certain majors will land you in small classes even at large universities, but look into it before you decide to go to one! #2 Don't take all your core classes in the very beginning if you have a hard major. What happens if you do that is that as you get into your later years, your classes will ALL be hard, whereas if you save some core credits 'til later, you can pad those rough classes with a little bit of intro English or History or whatever core you are taking. #3 DO NOT...I repeat DO NOT take four math-based courses at once. I did that, and I'm dying. #4 It may sound like a good idea to arrange all your classes back to back so you can shorten your day, but really--don't do this. You need a break in between classes! I have it set up so that I have four classes in a row, from 9 to 1, and I know highschoolers will be laughing at how pathetic it is that this kills me, but really--college is so much different that highschool. You cram SO MUCH material into a tiny amount of time, and it never slows down. If you get behind, you probably will be for the entire semester, unless you can pull some miracle out of your ass. So yeah, why not four classes in a row? Because you can't cram that much information into your head straight-through without a break, and without a bit of time in between also for the info to sink in. #5 If your roommate does sexual stuff with her boyfriend and you're in the room, confront her! #6 Be assertive but cooperative. Anything outside of in between will result in you either being a bitch, or you getting walked on. Neither one turns out well. If you want stories about getting walked on...well...I have plenty of those! #7 Get involved! Some people expect college to just be some magical transition into a perfect life, and it really can be that, but you have to put yourself out there. Do all the fun things you've always wanted to do! If there isn't a club to fit your interests, start one! A lot of people end up not liking the people in their dorm and it ends there. They don't do anything but homework and remain hermits for their entire college career. DO NOT DO THAT! It isn't worth it! There are so many opportunities for fun, you probably couldn't discover every single one of them in your four years if you tried! #8 Don't close your mind to academic possibilities because you think you are sure about what you want to do. Really, you aren't. None of us are until we try it, and it can be frustrating if we thought we were positive about what we wanted to do, try it, and then don't like it. And then we have a bunch of credits that contribute to a major we don't want anymore! Don't suffer through a major if you don't like it. Because, odds are, if you don't like studying it, you won't enjoy a job in that field. And though you may have to take more credits to graduate on time in another major, it will be yucky for a couple semesters, whereas being stuck with a job you don't like will be extra yucky for years or even your entire life. #9 If anyone tells you that your GPA doesn't matter, they are wrong. I was actually told that as long as I passed all my classes, my GPA wouldn't matter. NOT TRUE! You can't study abroad unless you have a certain GPA, you have to submit your GPA when applying for internships, and though I haven't done this yet, I'm sure certain jobs require a transcript and GPA when applying. Not to mention, graduate programs do put a strong consideration on your GPA when deciding whether or not to offer you admission into their program. Yes, your GPA matters. So don't do what I did my freshman year and slack! #10 If you are looking to study science, brace yourself. They told me it was hard, but once I actually did it, I had a whole knew definition of hard enter my brain, and I don't think I'm ever going back. Also watch out for engineering. If you major in any of these, prepare to stretch your brain in a thousand million different ways, to work your butt off, and, from time to time, to fail a test you studied millions of years for. If you really want to do it, do, but understand there will be episodes where you have to pick up the remains of your obliterated self-confidence and try again. It is feasible, or else we wouldn't have any chemists, doctors, dentists, microbiologists, or any of those people. And...if you think you're special and super-smart, don't write it off and expect it not to happen. My friend Rachel is an engineering major, and, I might add, the valedictorian of her graduating class from highschool. And she is experiencing the horror of failing a class she is working her ass off in. I'm not trying to scare anyone from trying the science or engineering major...dude, I'm trying it! But just make sure you REALLY love it, and understand that you are biting off a lot. And if you are willing to take the humiliation and do all the grueling work, all power to you--I believe in you--you can do it! #11 If you don't get something from a class, the day of that class, review it going through your notes, your books, or whatever resources are immediately available to you. If you don't understand it then, seek help from either your professor, a tutor, a friend, a classmate, whoever. But take care of it right away. Especially if your class is one that builds one concept upon another. I've been known to say "Oh, it'll make sense as time goes by," but then what comes next builds upon what I missed, so the longer I wait, the more lost I get, and then come test week, it is impossible to learn it all. Really. Don't wait. Do it RIGHT AWAY. #12 HAVE FUN! It really can be fun...I HATED my freshman year, then found my place this year, and am having the time of my life! It's great! Even if it doesn't start out well, don't give up! If you land yourself in your niche on your campus, you will LOVE it. I promise.

(Snuggle With Me?) [09 Aug 2005|06:35pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | We Are ] JNPenali (6:26:52 PM): WANT A BOY JNPenali (6:26:53 PM): Haha aratagos (6:28:15 PM): haha aratagos (6:28:22 PM): should have gone clubbing! JNPenali (6:31:14 PM): I didn't want one then JNPenali (6:31:16 PM): I just wat one now JNPenali (6:31:17 PM): *want JNPenali (6:31:20 PM): I don't actually JNPenali (6:31:26 PM): I want good grades! JNPenali (6:31:28 PM): So no boys JNPenali (6:31:33 PM): Gotta resist the urge aratagos (6:31:37 PM): just let things happen jess aratagos (6:31:41 PM): dont plan it out JNPenali (6:31:52 PM): I won't plan when to GET a guy JNPenali (6:31:57 PM): But I can plan when NOT to get one JNPenali (6:32:40 PM): Shit, does getting your teeth drilled such THAT bad/ JNPenali (6:32:41 PM): *? aratagos (6:32:45 PM): who says they are bad JNPenali (6:32:50 PM): Jalena aratagos (6:32:59 PM): no who says boys are bad aratagos (6:33:05 PM): yeah getting fillings arent that pleasant aratagos (6:33:08 PM): depends on the size of them JNPenali (6:33:09 PM): Oh boys JNPenali (6:33:11 PM): Mine is small JNPenali (6:33:12 PM): Oh well JNPenali (6:33:13 PM): Anyway JNPenali (6:33:26 PM): I know for a fact that when I have a boy, I study less aratagos (6:33:53 PM): dude read your last sequence of ims JNPenali (6:33:54 PM): Of course, that was only one boy aratagos (6:34:01 PM): out of context they is nasty JNPenali (6:34:06 PM): HAHA aratagos (6:34:15 PM): yup

(Snuggle With Me?) [08 Aug 2005|10:50am] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Mom tippity tapping ] Wow, I have five days left at home and then I'm going to livein Fort Collins for four months straight! AHH! I'd better like the sorority house... And Jalena had better come visit me at my house! We do have an extra bed just for her... :-D

(Snuggle With Me?) Stereotypes, Generalizations and Cultural Instructions [31 Jul 2005|04:41pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | I Love Rock and Roll ] Society is full of sweeping generalizations, and cultural coding...especially in the media. It's interesting to me how subconscious a lot of this is, and how many of us buy into it. I think it's good to bring it up to the surface and talk about it, or at least think about it, because I don't think these messages accurately represent reality; or are they fair to us as people when it comes to seeking the happiness we deserve to seek. So here's the messages I've personally received, being an American exposed to the media on a daily basis. "Morality levels are going way down. There is so much more hate in the world, and such a large amount of sexual promiscuity. People are just seeking immediate gratification. They don't love each other anymore." "Young Americans don't want to work as hard as young people all over the rest of the world." "We are going to kill our planet within the next couple of generations." "Everything is about monetary value. Nobody seems to care anymore about moral and spiritual value." "The United States government is superior to all other governments in the world. They will be inferior to us until they convert to democracy." "Americans are fat. They eat way too much, and don't ever exercise. Their health levels are lower than they have been in a long time because of their horrible life-styles." "If you are a girl and you're fat, you are unattractive. If you are a girl who diets, you are anorexic. If you are a girl who can eat a lot and stay skinny, you've got it made." "Girls: be sexy, but not sexual. Be gorgeous, but don't spend too much time primping yourself or you're a girly girl, and being feminine is not good. With the feminist movements, celebrate that you have to convert yourself into masculine ways to be treated as an equal...feminine ways are most certainly inferior. It's okay to jump up and down about sports, but not about the fact that you broke your freaking nail. But you'd better fix that. You'll never find a guy to like you if you're flawed." "Guys: nice guys finish last. So don't be nice. You want girls for their bodies. If you talk about love or enjoying a girl's personality, you are a pussy. But you lie to girls and tell them you want these things, and you will score. When you score, you are a stud. Scoring a lot is good. You are tough, rough, like to fight, and you don't ever cry. If you do, you are weak. You love sports and being manly. Strength is everything. But you can't clena. That's a job for women. Don't ever do your laundry. And the attractiveness levels of the girls you score with is a measure of your worth. Well, that's one. The second is how much money you make. Girls will always put a monetary value on you, and it matters. So get rich. Or you're a bum." "Guys that sleep around are studs. Girls that sleep around are sluts." "Conservative girls are prude. Liberal girls are sluts." "Wealth doesn't equal happiness. But for some strange reason, it is the best thing in the world to be rich. I mean, come on, you're the shit if you can buy what everybody wants. So basically, being rich doesn't make you happy, but rich people are happy. So get rich." "Good moms stay at home and do everything for their children. It doesn't matter what they want; you have kids, it's all about what they want." "Gay guys all have lisps, and are extremely feminine. You are a pussy if you are gay." "Lesbians are hot. Girls: make out with a girl in public, and every guy within a hundred miles will be all over you. As long as you're hot." "Guys: you want sex. You need it. You can't control it. Girls have to control it. So sexual promiscuity is all girls' faults." "Girls: guys think with their dicks. So you can control them with this. They want sex...you have what they want. But it's your responsibility to stay moral, so make him wait until the perfect time. And then when it's right, make sure you please him, because sex is the way to his heart. Not that it ever occurred to you that you have sexual needs to satisfy too. Cuz...girls don't want sex." "Guys give love for sex. Girls give sex for love." "If you don't believe in God, you aren't moral. In fact, if you aren't Christian, you aren't moral." "Christians are good people. Non-Christians are questionable." "If you are academically driven, you are a nerd. If you are athletically driven, you are a jock." "It isn't okay to use The Lord's name in vain in so saying "OH MY GOD!" Bu tit is perfectly fine to fight a war in the name of God because...who cares if God created the whole world? He favors us because we're a Christian society!" "The Constitution says one thing. The Bible says another. Go with the Bible, dammit, who cares if this is a democracy and not everyone is Christian? Everyone that matters is Christian, so The Bible is all that matters." "Perfect people don't have sex. Procreation is a very imperfect thing. It works for us, but man, would Jesus ever have sex? The virgin Mary? Of course not! THE SON OF GOD COULD NOT HAVE BEEN BORN BECAUSE OF FORNICATION! GROSS! HE IS WAY ABOVE THAT!" 'The worst you can be is ugly, fat and stupid. Who cares if you're ugly, fat and stupid, but you're a nice person? You can be the most cruel, cold-hearted SOB in the world, and you're still better than ugly, fat, stupid and nice." "If you have green hair, you do drugs." "If you are a single mom, you have failed at life. Unles your husband died. In that case, life has failed you." "Men do not stay at home and raise kids. That is way pussy." "Nobody stays married anymore." "You're kids a juvenile delinquent. Now let's analyze what the hell went wrong with your raising them...clearly it's your fault." "The perfect family has two parents, an older sister, a younger brother, and a pure-bred dog. The dad works in business, the mom is a stay at home mom who keeps the house in flawless ship-shape, the girl is nice to her brother and she hangs out with friends, talks on the phone, and giggles about boys. The boy plays sports and plays with the dog. If you do not achieve this image, it is a problems that you need to fix." "If you are a man who gets married before twenty-five, something is wrong with you. If you are a forty-year-old man unmarried, you fail at life. If you are a woman who marries before twenty-two, you are a college-dropout who got married because you had pre-marital sex and didn't use a condom. And you will become a single mom in a couple years because your husband will leave you for a less easy woman, and since you'll be a single mom, you fail at life. If you are a woman unmarried by thirty, you fail at life." "If two anythings are different, they are unequal." "Telling someone how you feel is a burden on them." "If someone comes to you with a problem, you must fix it." All right, I guess I've gotten a little carried away...I could go on and on! lol It's interesting...got me thinking! Hope everyone has a nice afternoon!

(4Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) Doonesbury--July 10, 2005--By Garry Trudeau [10 Jul 2005|12:16pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Pressure (Queen) ]

(6Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) For Fun, Stolen from Meggy! [10 Jul 2005|11:23am] [ music | Sugar (Gimme Some) ] So...I read the entry I wrote last night, lol.  I definitely don't recall writing about the frustration thing...how embarassing...but I don't even have a hangover, so yay!  And here's the thing Meggy did....dude, I can't believe you haven't ever camped!  Are you crazy?! I guess I'm used to everyone having camped tons cuz I live in Colorado...but I thought everyone everywhere camped at least a couple times in their lives!!!   Have you ever... played spin the bottle toilet papered someone's house played poker with money gone swimming in a white t-shirt been tickled so hard you couldn't talk liked someone but never told them went camping had a crush on your brother's friend walked in the rain without an umbrella told a joke that nobody thought was funny been in a talent show starting laughing at a bad time worn something your mom didn't approve of  (But this is my mom we're talking about, lol) been to a nude beach smoked a cigarette smoked pot drank smirnoff ice drank jack daniels cursed in a church had sex in a hot tub wanted to be a chef been called a slut for kissing someone burnt yourself with a curling iron/straightener (Uh, yeah, I have a permanent hideous scar on my shoulder thanks to that) wanted to be a police officer dumped someone been hit on by someone too old wanted to be a model made out in a car cried during a movie wanted something you couldn't have had sex on the beach had the drink, sex on the beach seen someone shoplift hung up on someone yelled at your pet (Of course, Mr. Shitmobile over here...) bought a thong when the cashier was a guy tried to strip when drunk gotten seasick had a stalker played a prank on someone that had them really scared been embarassed by your family felt bad about eating meat protested something been to an island been in love ate just because you were bored looked at something everyone thought was ugly and said "aww" screamed in a library made out with a stranger wished a part of you was different asked a guy to dance been asked out by a really hot guy laughed so hard you cried went up to a complete stranger and started talking been sunburned kicked a guy in the nuts threw up in school received an anonymous love letter had to wear something you hated been to a luau saw your ex and wanted to kick his ass cursed in front of your parents been in a commercial on tv watched a movie that made you miss your boyfriend been honked at by some guy when you were walking down the sidewalk won at pool (HA...HA....HA) went to a party where you were the only sober one went on a diet been lost out to sea been told an extremely stupid line  ("I'd love to hang out with you...cuz...you're prettier than my friends!") played truth-or-dare cheated on your boyfriend tanned topless been attacked by seagulls been searched at an airport  (Oh...no!  She has Allen's wrenches!  SHE'S GOING TO HOLD UP AN AIRPLANE!") been on a plane thrown a shoe at someone broke someone's heart (Don't think so) sung in the shower bought something way too expensive done something really stupid that you still laugh about been walked in on when you were dressing (Yeah, by this drunk guy, and he just sat there and stared for a full ten seconds...I was like "hello?  You just walked in on me!  You can leave now!") ran out of a movie theatre because you were too scared of the movie been kicked out of the mall been mean to someone then instantly wanted to take it back been given a detention on the worst day that you could get one done something stupid when you were drunk fell off your roof pretended you were scared so you could cuddle up to someone (Does pretending you're cold count?) had a deer jump in front of your car threatened someone with a water gun CAN I? unwrap a starburst with your tongue sing - but not well open your eyes underwater eat whatever you want and not have to worry ice skate sing in front of a crowd whistle be a bitch at times do thirty pull ups walk in really high heels eat super spicy foods sleep with lights on (All the time in driver's ed, lol) multi-task touch your nose with your tongue (The very end of it) fall asleep easily in a car do the cotton eyed joe (What the hell is that?) play DDR taste the difference between coke and pepsi (Yuck, I hate pop...I mean, excuse me Easterners, soda) do a split

(7Snuggled |Snuggle With Me?) [05 Jul 2005|09:26pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | The Sounds of Silence ] 01. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you. 02. I will then tell what song/movie/icon reminds me of you. 03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be. 04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you. 05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you. 06. I will tell you what animal or celebrity you remind me of. 07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you. 08. Put this in your journal.

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